my woґst pains aҐe wόґds i cannot say

2005-04-09T14:30:00.000+08:00

I mussssssst..

2005-04-06T17:41:00.000+08:00

This ache won't go away
this constant pain
my feelings bottled up
but i'll throw them into the sea
hoping that they can survive the rough waters
and finally reach you

2005-04-06T17:25:00.000+08:00

Miserable. Miserable, miserable day. Horrible faces crowding around, looking down at me..
Nah. Maybe its just the weather =) But I still love the rain, its soo fun haha.. the last time was like.. last year =\

2005-04-05T16:42:00.000+08:00

hMm.. tOdAe nOt BaD BaHx. fOr a ChAnGe pE wAs MucH mOrE fUn..pLAyEd bBalL wItH tHe gUyS lOrx. i bcUm sO rUsTy lEr!
YUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
yeah and I even missed balls. I'm jealous..matthew's bag is really nice haha I'm stealing it, I don't care matthew!

2005-04-04T17:09:00.000+08:00

I feel so horrible. What's going on? I've got no clue.. My demons are getting out of hand..save me please.. it aches and aches I feel lightheaded and I even need to stop and take a deep breath before I see the ground rushing up to meet me.. I see that girl standing there.. I pity her with all my heart.. is that still my main problem?

2005-04-02T16:13:00.000+08:00

2005-04-02T13:20:00.000+08:00

Yay I'm going out again later. But its stilll raining..madness.. I can't concentrate on my work these days.. I'm so dead.. and paranoid. Samuel LIM got 3 As for his first term.. and all my other classmates aren't that bad either.. at least they didn't FAIL. Yeah I understand how some of my classmates are feeling so stressed.. he reminds me of myself. Expectations.. Can't fail anything.. get 3 As? I CAAAAAAAAAAAN'T let Samuel lim beat me.. Thank you.. I've turned nerdy overnight.

2005-04-02T07:50:00.000+08:00

Mosquitoes suck. I'm itching away =..Its so dark. Another grey sky morning

2005-04-01T15:31:00.000+08:00

Assembly was interesting for once..first I was dreading it cos I heard Eldds was performing. Didn't turn out to be thaat bad? And dance.. This was the new batch so it was different.. and much more meaningful. Unlike dances in the past..when they just play some stupid rap or pop music and then dance. The guys will go wooooooooo.. haha. Spent some time with Zenn. Haha..and then we saw DON. lol.. I left after he did.. but I saw him again at my stop =Whatever.. haha we're going out again tonight. And don't worry lah Ren.. I'll know what to do even if he does muaha..
Jing..take care ya =)

2005-03-31T23:13:00.000+08:00

I don't think I can sleep tonight. Feels special.. I don't know why.. But somehow you'll find me in bed cos I haven't been following my sleep timetable.. whatever that is. I made it up. I hate sleeping. So..piggish haha =P

2005-03-31T15:55:00.000+08:00

Hey Jing.. I think I've figured out you for you =) Ive seen over the years.. you seem to make alot of friends.. And you kind of adjust yourself each time.. so that both of you seem to have many common traits..sometimes even picking up stuff from them.. so not you. Youre a different person with each one of us..You're a person pleaser I guess =) people love to be around you. And then you take these split personalities and mix them together.. like colours maybe.. and tada. The outcome. But do you recognize yourself now..? Uh.. SCHIZOPHRENIA?? Haha.. I know Ive got no right to judge you like that..its just a guess oookay.. I cant form my words when we're face to face. Actually its with everybody..I just dont say much lah. Now I feel like this whole thing is crap I wanna erase it so I'd better post it now...just trying to help =D

2005-03-31T15:21:00.000+08:00

Weird I'm kinda teary today. Maybe its the weather. Whenever I start laughing I'll cry. Haha..and the guys in my group are really lame. Had a stitch but still I couldnt stop.. yeah and its such a dull day...Finally got a chance to go home with Ren =D. The games are over for us now.. and from what I heard coach isnt going to coach us anymore......Neither is she coaching Pasir Ris Crest. Not so sure about that though.. I think Mr Teo is gonna take over.. (I hope) temporarily. I can't imagine whose gonna be our future coach. To think coach's really leaving us.. She's been with us since..=( Haven't even got the chance to talk to her..and I'm too ashamed to...

2005-03-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

Im straying from the light again. Just not in the mood.. cant let this go on forever
heeeeeeellllllpp

2005-03-29T16:37:00.000+08:00

2005-03-29T16:26:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to say..blogging is boring..
Stayed back with Jing and Mast yesterday. Wasted 3 hours..and the rest of the day I guess..
maybe add in the hours starting from.. now

2005-03-27T09:21:00.000+08:00

Didnt have much time to really swim.. boohoo.. most of the time spend taking care of my smallest brother.. irritating.. cos my mum wasnt there. In the end I only had..like about 10 minutes to swim =\ Hope I get the chance to go again reeeeeeeal soon.. ya I love swimming.. better than running.
Cut my foot on something sharp.. now I have to limp.

2005-03-26T07:58:00.000+08:00

Our first date.
Most of the time spent walking around and staying mute. Haha..when I just dont feel like talking I can be very quiet.. so just bear with me okay..lol Anyway the silence is nice =)
Zenn got hungry and he only had 70cents in his pocket. Then he got thirsty. Deprived of energy cos hes so thin. Slept a little.. there was a full mooooon..with one star beside it. Still NICE.. =) yyeah I enjoyed it..better then being alone. Yes now you know how I spend my nights..walking aimlessly..or just sitting and stoning zzzzzzzzz

2005-03-25T16:19:00.000+08:00

Photo taken by Zenn..Isnt it nice?

2005-03-25T15:45:00.000+08:00

2005-03-25T15:39:00.001+08:00

2005-03-25T15:39:00.000+08:00

2005-03-25T09:36:00.000+08:00

Its hazy this morning.

2005-03-24T21:42:00.000+08:00

Afraid for the girls..Everyones getting hurt..
Yesterday there was some activity. On the fifth floor of the block opposite our class. There were two couples reportedly doing Stuff. Haha.. too bad I didnt get to watch it. HAHA.. kidding. Happened around before recess and after. After finishing the guy saw us and shook his fist.. still naked haha.. Mrs Neo even heard about it and came to our class to talk to us. lol
I wont rest tonight =)

2005-03-24T19:39:00.000+08:00

Blah.

2005-03-23T17:19:00.000+08:00

2005-03-23T15:45:00.000+08:00

why

2005-03-22T17:15:00.000+08:00

Got back all of my results. Just waiting for my dad to sign and approve of my netball trainings.. Failed only two =) But my aim was to pass everything. Midyear then..
I'm afraid of something.. yes, I am..I am afraid of the future boohoo..I want everything to stay this way..I don't wanna grow up. I feel old enough already.. and I sound childish

2005-03-21T21:31:00.000+08:00

Dunman lost to Raffles. But I'm sure the girls did the best they could..=)..
Though I feel sucky down inside.. I'm so happy for them. Haha..and oh ya think I dreamt of them winning again..but I was somewhere up there in the clouds with the sun shining behind me and it was really hot..I woke up sweating even with the air-con.. cold sweat maybe..can't remember.. and sigh.. I wasnt able to support them. Rotten. Next year.. yahh..

2005-03-21T15:57:00.000+08:00

My results suck.. So far I failed Chinese, Duh, Humanities, by two marks. Could have done much better =\ Haha English got back paper2, 18/30..Chemistry 20/25 haha I'm quite happy.. but arghhhhh my physics!!! 16/25, 5 marks for careless mistakes. Kelvin got top for Chem and was second for Physics!!!! I hate him lar. Now I'm just worried for Lit. It's kinda tough and I suck at it. For Poa, its actually quite an easy subject but still its the first test I've done. Nerrvous. Dad's accusing me of hiding my marks from him. Cos my brothers already got back their papers before the holidays..

2005-03-20T16:23:00.000+08:00

Jesus...

2005-03-19T21:55:00.000+08:00

AAAAAAAHHHHHHH

Discretion.........

2005-03-19T21:35:00.000+08:00

The age at which children are said to have discretion, is not very accurately ascertained. Under seven years, it seems that no circumstances of mischievous discretion can be admitted to overthrow the strong presumption of innocence, which is raised by an age so tender. Between the ages of seven and fourteen, the infant is, prima facie, destitute of criminal design, but this presumption diminishes as the age increases, and even during this interval of youth may be repelled by positive evidence of vicious intention; for tenderness of years will not excuse a maturity in crime, the maxim in these cases being, malitia supplet aetatem. At fourteen, children are said to have acquired legal discretion.

2005-03-19T21:31:00.000+08:00

My brother just deleted all the pics I took.......................................................................................
and all those that I edited........................................................................................
alllllll goooooooooooneeeeeeee......................
Let me die.

2005-03-19T16:20:00.000+08:00

2005-03-19T10:36:00.000+08:00

pathway to hell???????
By Zenn =P

2005-03-19T08:49:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so dead. Probably because I haven't been running at all for the past few days.. I'm not going for training anymore unless I have permission from dad to go whenever there is.. Coach's unhappy about my irregular comings.. I've been avoiding her all along.. She saw me during camp. sigh..Life feels so hollow without netball. I do hope the team can make it to the finals..and I'll do whatever I can to help.. but my fate lies in my father's hands......

2005-03-18T19:29:00.000+08:00

i hear silence rustling through the grass blades
masking their speedy growth..

Just a line of crap. I'm bored.

2005-03-18T09:12:00.000+08:00

2005-03-18T08:43:00.000+08:00

I'm dead beat.. But at least I caught the sunrise.. Ahhh. I feel much more better now.. howl away, devils! Blah..Need sleep need sleep.......

2005-03-17T20:01:00.000+08:00

Now its taking me by storm
grinding my bones like the sand beneath
I'm unable to comply
I don't understand why
the night is falling upon me
too fast, I can't see
defying my cries,
turning off my water supply
this hunger drowning me
don't bleed
everyones watching
now don't pour bitter blood down
please don't, postphone the cyclone
let me lie
let my bones grow
deep through the ground

2005-03-17T19:52:00.000+08:00

Fierce? Scary? Man, no.
Hmm.. I'm visiting mother nature tonight.

2005-03-16T09:40:00.000+08:00

Quiet now only the sounds of the morning what follows comes darkness draping the morn with a black veil I see a hole in the middle but only a speck fullstop mountains of my life echoes of senseless ramblings this way my heart is never finding its way home still climbing its taking me far from heaven with many others longing for arrival nightmares of vultures waiting to feed on weak flesh no falling prey will not do and a glance back down sees me flying back down then like a prisoner trapped inside my own broken walls well change this situation im unable to bend with the flow change it change it just let me burn short and sweet

2005-03-16T00:03:00.000+08:00

I miss camp. lol.. Should be sleeping under the stars feeling the cool night air by now.. but no I'm stuck in this dark black box. BUT feeling comfortable. Tomorrow's back to work..argh.. I fear that my nightmares would overcome me again.. Weirdly enough, I don't feel tired. And sitting here, thinking. Feeling lonely maybe..for a change. ohno should'nt face that way.. here it comes rushing in, never receeding..

Walking away
It's not the same as running
Is it to you know that you've run in this ground
And you say take this
This medicine is just what you deserve
Swallow, choke, and die.

And this bitter pill is leaving you
With such an angry mouth
One that's void of all discretion
Such an awful tearing sound
With it's measure only equal by the power of my stare
Glaring over you and over you this feeling of despair
Is never wearing out

It's wearing off
And it's leaving you with such a heavy heart
And a head to match
The bottle is waiting
The cap is twisted begging to be used
And so are you.

2005-03-15T20:01:00.000+08:00

So, camp was considered fun, I embarrased myself two times, got to know mad instructors and thankfully, they are now out of my life.
There's so much to say!! Camp's kinda fun but it sucks at the same time too.
Our instructor's a guy called Gerald. He's got a twin brother named Matthew. Lol. They look alike, behave the same way.. so similar.
First day was really boring, sat and sat in the hall, then on the burning ground, so that at the end of the day my ass felt like people kicked it a many good times, and it felt bruised. Haha.. whatever,,
And Cheryl and me thought Gerald was REALLY FUNNY, so we were like ha ha ha, when eating lunch such that we hicupped. My stomach was bloated with air. He kept picking on us! So unfair..I shot a rubberband at him and he didn't even know I did it. Lmao..I had again, a taste of what it felt like being sticky and sweaty sleeping in a tent stuffed with people. One of whom had BO. ARGHHHHHHH. Gerald bought us sweets. I'm almost suffering from diabeties. We weren't allowed to sleep outside the tent but me and Cheryl really couldn't take it anymore so we did just that with sleeping bags. Saw lots of stars, beautiful but the moon was missing..In the end we weren't noticed and it got really cold. I was sniffing away the whole of next morning. Didn't sleep much. Then, the expedition. Gerald was a pest!!! I was moody today. So I had to endure questionSS like, "Why are you so moody today? Why do you look so fierce? Why so fierce?? Hey can you smile abit??" Ugh. Sucker Gerald and his Brother. Irritating! I ignored them all along.. HAHA they had to plead me. To smile.. with ice cream.. whatever shit. When I finally replied him in the school canteen where everyone gathered, with submissive words"OK, OK" and he just shouted out loud for everyone to hear that I'd finally replied him. HAha, Cheryl got it too. THANK GOD its all over. FUN!! ( yes i mentioned lots of times)

2005-03-13T08:26:00.000+08:00

zzzz.. Last night I couldnt sleep. So I sneaked out. The night was really nice. Too bad there wasnt a full moon..I wrote some lines and listened to the music of the night. A white cat even jumped out of nowhere and onto my bench. And wow.. its not just an ordinary cat.. a Persian.. Light blue eyes.. beautiful.. and then I saw its babies.. three of them.. all white but for one..black as the night..all bony thin. I dont understand humans..sigh I could almost see tears falling from the mothers eyes.. It was staring at me hopefully..even after I fed them. If animals could speak.. for they hold in hand much more wisdom then us.. the news of acrid cruelty would reach our ears. But would we do anything about it?
I've got tuition later. I wish I didnt have to go..

2005-03-12T21:53:00.000+08:00

Greeeaat. My maid's leaving for a few days. A few days. I hope lol.. Cos that adds housework to the list. Haha..I'm lazy lar.

2005-03-12T14:19:00.000+08:00

2005-03-12T09:46:00.000+08:00

Thinking about now.. I'm very fortunate. Being loved.. Loving others. =)
Jing. Haha.. it's like guys are your drugs. So happens I'm listening to this song about drugs. Drugs or me?? Lol.. nevermind.. I'll be there.

2005-03-11T19:15:00.000+08:00

Last day..yay. What's wrong with dunmanites.. no support?
I did my best for chinese.. I even wrote in extra neat handwriting. I have no regrets. lol
Can't stand my brother...

The new age Nerd.

2005-03-10T16:08:00.000+08:00

Three papers today.. My worst subjects.. Except for physics..
..
Maths paper was given out today. Got a little more scared when Mrs Lin told us that we had alot of failures. It can't be me, I'd thought. Already gone through a whole year of the same thing. She called out this guy to note down the marks for her. I was second in line, and looking at him anxiously. Then he looked up at me from his work, expressionless, for a brief moment.
What was that supposed to mean? I could only wait for him to finish his job..
I was second in class. Sucker Kelvin won again. Careless mistakes again.
But guesss whatt? When I counted the marks it was two marks more. Which meant, I won Kelvin! So, tada, first in class. I'm sorry lar, Adora, I can't help it. I just miss being a nerd. LOL.
And Kelvin didn't want to give up! He asked me for my marks for the last few tests and quizes.. OH mannn. I so wanna kick his ass.

2005-03-09T19:41:00.000+08:00

Yay, Adora's back. Other than that..
Humanities was okay..I just hope I passssssssssss
Is it year 2010 already?

2005-03-08T17:38:00.000+08:00

News Update

2005-03-08T16:54:00.000+08:00

Man, in his forties, killed wife and two children before jumping twelve storeys down to his death. A neighbour passing by said she heard him shouting before taking the leap. Police found the wife and children lying together, all dressed up. Wife was suspected to have been strangled from the red marks on her neck. No evidence of a struggle, police are still pondering over how the children died.
Man in need of money, SO he KILLED XXXhbweifubw
Owed a large sum of money. Police are still investigating the cause of this senseless massacre. (So I was wrong!)
That's all for yesterday's news update.

Reporter : Just for Adora. If you're still clueless. But I know you already know. Ah whatever. Practising for my Newspaper Report writing. Lol.......

2005-03-08T16:23:00.000+08:00

Couldn't think of anything to write about for quite a long time..When it finally got to me I forgot how to put my thoughts into sentences. Blood clot.
I think I wrote quite alot.. over the limit..and my handwriting is small. Couldn't be bothered much with the newspaper report..
I just managed to finish the paper. Towards the end of my compo I rushed. Now I have a sucky ending. Plus I was hyperrr..and I always am after a paper. Too much sugar in my blood after sitting for so long I think..ran all the way to the toilet haha. At least when I got back I was less jumpy..
Maths sucked. I couldn't solve the last question. ARGH

2005-03-07T16:52:00.000+08:00

I feel dead.
Waiting for the bus opposite school. Saw my old classmates..=). They told me that there was a crime scene just around the corner. Suicide. From the 12th floor. Male. I only managed to see the tip of the blue tent covering the dead body. Nearby, the playground. Secondary One students running about. Did they not care? And Cheryl, "I wanna go and see..so fun.."
Another person put out of his misery, but maybe jumping into more torture. This world forces us to extremes. I don't know.. all I know is I'm affected.

2005-03-06T19:03:00.000+08:00

You can't save me this time..

2005-03-06T09:26:00.000+08:00

I was lost in a sea of love I was drowning in your words You were flying in the clouds above Care free in the open air When your tears from the clouds came down They rained a storm on me All your sadness took the sun away And made a storm on this cold dark sea Why did I fall for you When I knew I couldn't swim in the clouds I guess I made a big mistake The sky's so far above this lake Stranded here in deepest dark A million fish the same But everyone’s just a lifeless god Who could never take away my pain Every now and then I see your light And I know you're flying overhead But like a memory you fade away And I'm surrounded by this chill instead Why did I fall for you When I knew I couldn't swim in the clouds I guess I made a big mistake The sky's so far above this lake Though you seem to me so far away You're always flying over me Some day I will grow my wings and join you As I rise above this cold dark sea I've come to fall for you You'd be surprised if I could swim in the clouds I know my life would so great If I could fly with you above this lake Looking up you're so far away From where I'm floating in this cold dark sea...

2005-03-06T08:26:00.000+08:00

2005-03-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

Can't seem to concentrate for long today..
My mind flutters like a kite on a string.. I'm stuck here.
It just rained abit..Ah I love it.
The fresh, cool air.
But I'm stuck here.
Oh no I feel shitty already.. time to drown myself.

2005-03-05T11:49:00.000+08:00

Our dear temporary teacher Mrs ROBB!!! HAH

2005-03-05T08:32:00.000+08:00

One moment the sun was shinning golden over the rooftops.
Then it was as if someone had turned off the power switch.
Cold and grey. Dark..dark.

2005-03-04T13:28:00.000+08:00

Ahah.. I`m going for the darn camp again..It`s kinda fun actually.. should I??? I still have the booklet with me.. but maybe I answered differently? =\ Hmm.. maybe I`ll go. I`m not sure..
Not much lessons today.. Robb didn`t come. Yay. Um. Mother asking me to help buy things. BE RIGHT BACK. I don`t know. Feeling crappy lol

Ok. What I just saw was a lion growling at me. No really he looked like one lol.. and before that, a monkey. =\ What next?

2005-03-03T19:34:00.000+08:00

I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate I can`t concentrate
If I keep on doin this, I`m gonna end up dead.
My life`s finished.

2005-03-02T04:10:00.000+08:00

It`s raining.........and now I feel like crap..=\

2005-03-01T18:56:00.000+08:00

Late for PE again.. usual stuff.. boring. I can`t finish art.
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrhhhhhh
Hm.. the clouds today are big, fluffy, beaautiful.haha.
Cotton wool.

2005-02-28T17:08:00.000+08:00

Mother, mother
There's too many of you crying
Brother, brother, brother
Far too many of you die
You know we've got to find a way
To bring some lovin' here today

Father, father
We don't need to escalate
War is not the answer
Only love can conquer hate
You know we've got to find a way
To bring some lovin' here today

Picket lines and picket signs
Don't punish me with brutality
Talk to me, so you can see
What's goin' on
What's goin' on
What's goin' on
What's goin' on

Father, father, everybody thinks we're wrong
But who are they to judge us
Simply 'cause our hair is long
You know we've got to find a way
To bring understandin' here today

Picket lines and picket signs
Don't punish me with brutality
Talk to me
So you can see
What's goin' on
What's goin' on
What's goin' on
What's goin' on

- A Perfect Circle

2005-02-28T16:58:00.000+08:00

this sucks.

Still aches. Dreaded thing..
I can`t be trusted.
Mother came to school with me today and together we waited for Mr Lao. Turns out he went for re-service. Tomorrow..
No staying back for the tests are coming. The team`s been encouraging me all along, and I can`t even be there for the games. I have no one else to blame. But I shouldn`t be so self-pitying, right? Like what Coach says, and she`s still ignoring me.. I guess I`m too rotten inside to talk to.

I want Adobe Photoshop cs

2005-02-27T08:57:00.000+08:00

Grey sky morning..
Taufiq`s impressed with me getting up early. yeah impressive -_-
The camera`s gonna be taken away tomorrow.
Motherrr needs it.
Byebye.

2005-02-26T20:04:00.000+08:00

2005-02-26T20:03:00.000+08:00

Gaa

2005-02-26T20:01:00.000+08:00

2005-02-26T20:00:00.001+08:00

Glass + water + travelling at 100km/h

2005-02-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

Crying sky.. Took it inside the car with the water droplets

2005-02-26T19:59:00.000+08:00

This Morning. Sulking.

2005-02-25T21:41:00.000+08:00

2005-02-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

2005-02-25T19:43:00.000+08:00

2005-02-25T19:17:00.000+08:00

=( My moon.
That picture`s crap.
Anyone know how to blend pictures together?????????? Need to know urgently. !!!!!

2005-02-24T21:49:00.000+08:00

Falling through velvety clouds
Into another heaven
Still covered in fairy dust
Still feeling the weight behind
The needle-finger moves in
The void fades, back
This saving grace that we all know
I , blind to these illusions
Not telling darkness from light
Finally the mask is off
And this world has never been so
That words cannot colour

2005-02-23T19:34:00.000+08:00

Full moon tonight. At last......

These are the hands
pressing down on me
as I cower in fear
will I shatter?

2005-02-22T19:45:00.000+08:00

arrrrrrgh. . . I didn`t know a little sprain could be that bad. It`s bruised all over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhh.. I can hardly write!! Still as fat, maybe a little fatter. Beautiful!! =)
Coach still ignoring me.

2005-02-21T19:29:00.000+08:00

Horrendous. My little finger, swollen to the size of my middle finger. Kinda nice in a sense. Whatever..
So I`m told that I have to walk home everyday. I don`t know why either. But thats fine. Lol, Adora, thats not abuse or anything. There has been worse. =)
I have alot of work to catch up on, I don`t know when I`m really gonna start at it. Sooooooooon, I hope..

2005-02-19T19:18:00.000+08:00

Went shopping. My mom bought two similar cameras for office use. Now they`ve left. Gone to see the Chingay. Dad`s at work.. i did a little revision already.. so what now?

2005-02-19T09:00:00.000+08:00

Common test in two weeks. What have i done? Nothing. Still alot to catch up on..especially my stupid chinese. Grrrr..change my attitude. Take my hand.

2005-02-18T19:29:00.005+08:00

Beautiful morning. The sky was purple. Everything was soaked up in mysterious purple. Too bad, no camera. =Fire drill..how fake. If it was real she`d be complaining about how much damage was done. The air in the field was filthy.. with all the flies and stuff. My lungs are getting choked up.
We won the game.. we`re going to the second round. =) didnt play though, stood there jumping with Nat and Karen like a retard, shouting ourselves hoarse. Haha. I bet our court was the noisiest. But when it was time, it was so quiet! At first it was like we didnt understand the umpire or didnt hear her, and she had to repeat again. Hilarious. It happened last time too..over an important match. Then the air was filled with our cries, Karen and Nat jumped up screaming at the same time. Most of them cried.
An opened door leading to locked ones. We gotta find the key to all.

??

2005-02-17T21:27:00.000+08:00

he came.
and then he was gone.
as much as he ever is.

god came through,
and then back into the fog, gone,
but then again - he never is.

2005-02-17T17:19:00.000+08:00

2005-02-16T17:56:00.002+08:00

Inner hell

2005-02-16T17:56:00.001+08:00

movie poster

2005-02-16T17:56:00.000+08:00

2005-02-16T17:52:00.000+08:00

"Smile pretty, vain prick."

2005-02-16T17:25:00.000+08:00

got some really cool constantine posters =P

2005-02-16T17:12:00.000+08:00

highlight of the day: one hour detention for not lining up at the parade square, for making my classmates wait. had art till 4, went back home but didnt really, played at the ..playground? where all those aunties `work out` in the morning, until my teamates gathered to chase me home. lol. =)

2005-02-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

no, blogging is a waste of time. it kinda burdens you, you gotta update everyday. decorate your blog, this, that, theres so much more things to do lah JING. and seriously hey, focus more on studies

2005-02-15T18:46:00.000+08:00

2005-02-15T18:08:00.000+08:00

blogging sucks.

2005-02-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

toodays valentines day. big deal. couldnt get anyone presents..
i managed to survive ss and chem, super boring.. rubbish man.. 2 correct answers and i cancelled them out. well at least i passed.. and i was trying to catch some shut-eye by hiding my face behind my hands and the teacher thought i was sick, sad or something. then he assumed it was because it was valentines day, and saw the roses that were spposed to be for coach and mistunderstood. DUMB
sad. i had to leave early for training..

2005-02-13T12:47:00.000+08:00

messy room. opened the window, to let dust in. there goes happy chinese new year.. threatens me because he cares. beats me up because he cares? we may be facing a divorce.. thanks to me.. mom`s very sick.........

2005-02-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

a whole day wasted just like that. with nothing to do but stuff myself. read kiddy comics for the rest of the day. wore some black formal wear.. so uncomfortable.. im staying up to do my work. yeah im hardworkin!! waha..

2005-02-08T19:18:00.000+08:00

hell?

hell

Smoking kills.

welcome to my life.

depression. "im dying of lung cancer, and i cant go to heaven!"

possessed. "This is constantine. John constantine, asshole."

constantine was great. go catch it. lost adora and sheeren halfway. adora!! how could you?? haha jk.. now i`ve got THE FLU. =\ bloodshot eyes. zombie man. haha.. still went to school.. unlike some people. haha.. i loove constantine lah. hilarious man.. Cynical sacarsm. hopefully it helps to stop the rate of deaths from lung cancer. =P im tired..